the United Kingdom in 1967, and have good reason to believe that my biological mother would have opted for a termination had this been available. Vacuum aspiration would have sucked me into early oblivion and my adoptive parents would have been offered a different child. It is unsettling to consider this, but some objectivity changes the picture. The embryo that might have been terminated was not me; it was the seahorsey stage of a mammal that became me. If the abortion procedure had been carried out later in the pregnancy, the foetus would have looked a lot more like a new-born baby, but that would not have been me either; it would have been the foetal mammal that became me. A mammal is anticipated in the womb, but the individual – the person – does little to express itself until, like the whale, it takes its first breath.
Edmund Spenser offers a lyrical expression for the limits of this sort of counterfactual thinking in The Faerie Queene:
As when a ship, that flyes fayre under sayle,
And hidden rocke escaped hath unwares,
That lay in wait her wrack for to bewaile,
The Marriner yet halfe amazed stares
At peril past, and yet in doubt ne dares
To joye at his foolhappie oversight . . .
What was one of your hidden rocks? How about the time the side mirror of an accelerating bus whizzed by at head height the moment before you stepped off the curb? How lucky that a few seconds earlier you were distracted by a yellow moth fluttering behind the window of the sandwich shop and slowed your pace. Did the insect save your life, or should you thank the cleaner who did not bother to open the window? Life proceeds as a continuous stream of near misses and